I struggle with getting out of my routine. I love getting up in the morning, listening to a sermon, reading blogs, taking the dogs for a run or a walk, and then going off to do my work for the day. However, travel is so good at upsetting that routine which is a WONDERFUL thing for an eating disorder. Eating disorders love predictability, but God loves to train His children to trust Him. That’s what travel has taught me.
This past year has been a spark of new hope in my heart, and no, it’s not connected to the presidential election (in case you were wondering.) God is giving me new hope after years of struggle. This last week really hit this home for me, because I’m feeling more optimistic and hopeful than ever before.
He has put a new song into my heart, and I am happier and more joyful and freer than I’ve ever felt before in my life. And that’s taken 24 years. I truly have realized the peace of God, the peace of Christ that passes all understanding this year in the midst of some of the hardest circumstances our family and church has faced. I’m healing. I’m running because I love it, not because I have to. I’m resting, because rest is good, and it’s so refreshing for the soul, mind, and body. And I’m also talking about a vacation that’s coming up; thank you Meg for creating this fun ‘Week in Review.’ It’s a wonderful space to share thoughts, lessons from the week, and all the wonderful/hard/challenging/amazing things that happened.
I kind of just want to sing and dance these verses from Psalm 103:1-4, ‘
Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;’
Ok, so I was not planning to write this post, but I sometimes plan things, and the Lord always directs my steps. I was scrolling through the blog archives when I immediately walked down memory lane to October of 2014. This was bittersweet. I wasn’t still in the best place in recovery, but I was learning and growing by leaps and bounds. There were some really tough times on that trip where I had to face a lot of my sin and repent and ask my brother and sister’s forgiveness for many times that I put food or instances of wanting to restrict as a priority. Thankfully, they were quick to confront me, and because of their example, I ate and enjoyed so much chocolate, bread, ice cream, pizza, and so many other yummy European foods without restriction. And that leads me to one of the best memories of that trip.
‘It’s a long and winding road….’
Hey, I’m on a trip… again! We’re on the road for a wedding. But I thought it would be fun to get it on the the fun with the Top 3 with Kate and Friday Favorites with Heather. Can you feel the excitement vibrating off of me because I’ve been wanting to do Kate’s Top 3 for weeks now and I’m finally writing a post at 1:12 AM just so I can participate?