I struggle with getting out of my routine. I love getting up in the morning, listening to a sermon, reading blogs, taking the dogs for a run or a walk, and then going off to do my work for the day. However, travel is so good at upsetting that routine which is a WONDERFUL thing for an eating disorder. Eating disorders love predictability, but God loves to train His children to trust Him. That’s what travel has taught me.
9/11/2017 – 16 years ago I was 8 years old. I don’t think I really understood what happened that day. I knew it shook up the country. I knew that people had died in a horrible attack, and now it has sunk in only deeper. Life is so fragile and vulnerable. My life is so fragile; so many people passed from life into eternity that day. My heart hurts knowing that there were people who lost loved ones that day. I think one of the books that made it so real to me was this book, ‘Let’s Roll’ by Todd Beamer’s Wife. Todd died in a plane crash that day, a plane that was meant to go into another place and kill so many more people. He was one of the ones that attempted to retake the plane from the hijackers, and the plane crashed in Pennsylvania. The book is so powerful, and it reminds me that my life is in God’s hands. And there is no saying when I will die, and I want to be ready. I want to pray for those who are really grieving so hard today knowing that they lost ones they loved, and I want to continue to pray for those who are being affected by Hurricane Irma and the aftermath of Hurricane Harvey.
Meredith, my friend at the Cookie Chrunicle shared a post as she was so close that day to the happenings of September 11th, 2001.
‘O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.’ (1 Corinthians 15:55-57)
I never thought I would share that I once struggled with binging (AKA: eating large quantities till I was uncomfortably full.), but I know God humbled my spirit through it and drew me closer to Himself and farther from the food that was my idol.
Negative body image comments are something that all of us have probably dealt with at one time or another. It’s such a real struggle especially when the temptation is to just look at the outward appearance of people. Even though I struggled with an ED myself, I STILL have problems not looking at people at drawing conclusions based on their appearance. Yet I’m reminded over and over again that God goes far deeper. He looks into our heart. Jesus went to the heart of the matter with the woman at the well. He knew that she had sin issues, and He dealt with them gently yet with a heart full of compassion and truth for what she was really struggling with deep down.
We serve a big God. It’s sometimes hard to remember that when I see a broken world around us. Every one of us has sinned. Every one of us has failed, has gone through dark dark valleys, fought with guilt, shame, and terror. That’s why I delight in sharing these stories. These remind me of the might and power of God despite the weakness of mankind. These stories remind me of our human inability and the glory of God in changing, transforming a soul from darkness to light. This podcast story is no exception to that; this story of my dear precious friend Shannon is one of using over 50 laxatives a day and keeping secrets to freedom, joy, fighting, not giving into temptation, and learning to trust the Lord not herself.
This is an awesome story because God is awesome. God has all the power in the world and all the ability to change the human heart that wants to make idols, wants to make gods out of lesser things than worshipping the God of the universe, and God sent His Son Jesus to wash each needy heart, each precious soul that cries out to Him.