Recovery is tough, but with God nothing is impossible. I hope to make this a weekly occurrence as God has used the tool of social media to connect me with so many other sisters in the Lord that are recovering from eating disorders. This week I am featuring a story of struggle, joy, and hope from ‘The Bar Queen’ on Instagram. If you don’t follow her, you should, because she has the BEST reviews and pictures of almost any of the protein bars that you can think of on her feed.
Job 5:8-11 says, ‘I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause: Which doeth great things and unsearchable; marvellous things without number: Who giveth rain upon the earth, and sendeth waters upon the fields: To set up on high those that be low; that those which mourn may be exalted to safety.’
Through this series, I want to illustrate that God takes people on different journeys and that GOD works miracles. This is ANOTHER story of God’s mighty work . There are different ways that God grows us and teaches us to trust and obey Him, and this is another beautiful story of that. She is one of the most ENCOURAGING instagrammers that I follow. She shares scripture and encouragement in the Lord, and for that I am so grateful. I can’t wait to someday meet her in person, Lord willing!
(Just one of the pictures of one of her delicious looking protein bars.)
I hope you are blessed by this testimony again of God’s compassion and tender mercies to His children.
Eating Disorder Recovery Series II: Finding the Meaning of Joy
My whole life I’ve always been super happy and outgoing. One main cross I’ve had to bear is that I have a very sensitive stomach. I’m also allergic to gluten which helps keep it calm but the average stomach flu always seems to hit me harder than most people.
I went to a private, small school and in 8th grade I decided that I wanted to branch out and attend a large, public high school. It was no big deal, I thought to myself, because I love to try new things and meet new people. Towards the end of 8th grade, I started to become very stressed out because I literally wouldn’t know anyone at my new high school. Also, all of my middle school friends were going to a private highschool together. This stress cause my stomach to flare up, and I began to eat less.
I also started feeling out of control because I wanted to go to this new high school, but I didn’t know a soul. The only relief I could find was the high endorphins I got from exercise. I’ve always had a passion for being physically active, but it was nothing like this. This was the only way I could clear my mind and have some control. Due to this and my appetite decrease, I drastically lost weight.
This made me not be able to think clearly so when I thought what I was doing was “healthy” and a “good way to relieve stress” – it was quite the opposite.
My mom saw me wasting away and decided to take me to a doctor. They simply told me to increase my calories VERY HIGH and very quickly. This works for some people, but my sensitive stomach wasn’t handling it well. Then my mom took me to a dietitian, and we explained the stomach issues. She was wonderful and had me slowly start eating more and more which worked for my stomach.
Gaining weight was not hard for me mentally, but because of my stomach it got so full and bloated, and it was extremely painful. One day I came down with a bad cold and lost some weight. Gaining became very hard so my parents took me to a gastro(stomach) Doctor. He found that my stomach produces more acid than normal and gave me an antacid medicine. This, along with TUMS, helped with making the weight gain process much less painful. It was still hard, mentally, but I knew that I had to keep fighting.
During my worst time while I was exercising so much and eating so little, I ate mainly soup, occasional salads, smoothies, and cereal, which is basically no fats or protein, and not enough carbs. My body was so defiant until one day when my mom brought home Quest bars. At first I was scared to try them but then I built up my courage and LOVED them! They were amazing and helped me start challenging myself to other foods.
I know some people abuse protein bars and use them to hinder their recovery but for me, they really helped, especially since my body was so deficient in protein. That’s where my instagram name, ‘the bar queen,’ comes form. I love these little guys, and they have helped me A LOT.
As my body and my mind repaired itself, and I made lots of friends in my high school, gaining weight lead to gaining happiness. Today I’m at a healthy weight and happier than ever. I have a passion for gymnastics and also do a little bit of dancing and running. Now, I’m properly fueling my body. I still struggle at times, but I am turning to God and in Him alone, anything is possible.
Today I am so happy and closer to the Lord. I’m at a healthy weight and am following His plan.
Thank you Amanda for letting me link-up to share this marvelous story!
If you are interested in sharing your story and would love a platform to share it on PLEASE don’t hesitate to shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. 🙂