I’m a child of God. I know that now, more than ever, but there were so many times that I struggled to see it with my eyes clouded by my idols of body and food.
I remember sitting on the bathroom floor and sobbing out, ‘I just can’t do this.’ ED was draining every ounce of life from my body. Instead of feeding me, my ED was drowning me. My thoughts were not full of God’s truth. They were filled with Satan’s lies, Satan’s lies that it was ‘by my works’ that I could be good enough for heaven, good enough for God.
Ephesians 2:8-9 says, ‘For by grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God, not of works lest any man should boast.’
This was the awesome part I was missing. Grace is not something that can be earned. Grace is a gift. It is a jewel from God, sent by the hand of His Son who came to satisfy the wrath of God against sin. Jesus came, so that our sin would be covered. He came so that I didn’t have to be ‘skinny enough.’ He came so that I could wake up with joy and hope in my heart that wasn’t dependent on the number on the scale. Because of Him, I can face tomorrow.
ED almost broke me, but God remade me. Satan tried to get His evil claws around me, but he couldn’t. Jesus has defeated and conquered him. He has risen in victory over the grave, and for that amazing, awesome reason, I can say that ED lost and Jesus won.
Because of Jesus, I can now eat everyday with a greater sense of peace day by day, knowing that my worth is not determined by food. I can enjoy so many awesome gifts of God with so much joy and more gratefulness than ever before, knowing that I am remade in Him.
And that’s why I love joining Jenn and the other beautiful bloggers (almost) every Wednesday for a non-judgmental, fun day of just simply sharing our eats. It’s not a day to compare what we eat. It’s not a day to ask, ‘How many calories do you eat?’ It’s a day to salivate over beautiful colorful salads, icecream sundaes, hotdogs, green smoothies, and kale chips. And without further adieu, it’s a day to share my day of eats with you from oatmeal to salad to… salmon!
Breakfast of late: It’s been oatmeal. . . 🙂 ‘Nuff said. Oatmeal is like the ‘breakfast’ version of icecream. You can load it with so many toppings including nuts, granola, peanut butter (of course), honey, dried fruit, and the possibilities go on and on… Just don’t put onions or mustard or any other weird thing on top.
Lunch: (lately) has been sandwiches and a couple salads in between. . . I will always love a good salad, heaped with all sorts of dairy, nuts, and dressing!
Dinner: Salmon and macaroni n’ cheese… Dare I say more?
And in our house, there is always some sort of dessert (baked up by yours truly), and tonight it was a peach crisp (gluten free for my daddy). . . However it did not lack in sugar and fat, so it made for a pretty tasty bowl of goodness with which to end the day.
Are you a Christian?
If you aren’t a Christian, what has been the biggest influence in your view of eating and exercise?
And a few lighter questions!
Do you like peach crisp? What’s your absolute favorite dessert?
Salmon? Do you love it or hate it? (Seafood is always a love/hate relationship, it seems)
Lunch. Do you like a heavy lunch or a lighter lunch and heavier dinner, or are you a total snacker?