I don’t think I literally eat 2,000 pounds of food everyday, but I do eat a good ‘heap’ (as one of the New Zealanders who were at our house at the weekend would say) of food every day. The simple answer to why I think I eat ‘heaps’ for a short girl is that I’m hungry for it, and I’m learning to listen to my body again.
I’ve never had a small appetite, even though I’m pretty small in every way. I’m not skinny, but the Lord decided to give me 5′ 3″ of height and a pretty small frame, for which I am very grateful. Sometimes, though, it doesn’t compute with the amount of food I can eat. *sheepish grin*
I’ve met girls who are quite a bit taller and well, I started to play that little old deceptive ‘comparison’ game. I look at their plate, look at mine, and think, ‘Wow, maybe I should not eat so much.’ That’s never a fun or good game to play. It’s ALWAYS more freeing to remember that we stand before God, not men in everything we do, including eating! 🙂
Since regaining my appetite, I definitely take the cake for filling my plate when it comes to the dinner table. I have to remind myself that it’s not a competition. It’s about caring for the temple that God gave me. I don’t want to boast that I ‘eat a lot’ because I’m definitely not a bottomless pit, but I don’t want to crawl into a corner, because my eating doesn’t look exactly like the girl (or even boy) next to me at the dinner table. Instead, I want to give glory to God in everything including what I eat.
The only thing I ever want to boast about? It is in Christ Jesus dying on the cross and rising again to save me from my sins!
I have had to learn that my body does have a limit. During recovery, there were a few times that I was so hyper-focused on re-feeding my body that it quickly became an opportunity to binge instead of remember that each bite is a gift from God. I am still learning to have self-control when it comes to food, exercise, and body image, but I can now embrace the way God made me, appetite and all. That means I don’t have to compare. I can be grateful and not give it a second tho
The bowl looks small, but it’s actually pretty deep. I had some of Arman’s Tiramisu Rice Pudding for breakfast, and I will be having it for the next few days, because there is quite a bit of it in the refrigerator. However, I’m not complaining.
Reminder: This is not to show other people exactly what to eat or how much to eat. It’s just a showcase of a few different days of eating for me and how I’m learning to work with the metabolism that God’s given me, so I can better serve Him to His glory!
10:30 pm Snack (Today!)
A few handfuls of this Great Value tropical trail mix. Dried fruit is da bomb y’all! So glad that God made the tropics.
More rice pudding! And yes, I do put chocolate chips on my breakfast sometimes.
Tuesday Dinner! Part I
(I had this + an unpictured sandwich thin with peanut butter and trail mix on top) I also had a piece of PUMPKIN cake and chocolate ice cream. Weird combination but very tasty!
This isn’t a small plate, but I got to embrace my Oriental heritage tonight with some yakisoba!!! And strawberries. Those aren’t quite as Oriental.
I also got to embrace a little bit of my appreciation (not heritage) for Italian food. Spaghetti will always be one of the old standbys/favorites in our house.
A dinner from last week:
Tuesday Lunch Part I – I haven’t had a bagel in forever, but this was good, topped with a bit o’ Skippy and honey.
Tuesday Lunch: Part II
Lunch was also a random veggie burger, a slice of pepper jack cheese, and some very crisp red peppers!
God is an amazing designer. When we were backpacking in Europe last year, I encountered about 20+ different varieties of apples that I had never encountered before. It was such a striking reminder of my awesome God’s love for variety, colors, tastes, and beauty.
Apple #1 (I had another apple #2 later.)
Today, I was not the best on the vegetable front, but I figure that it’s not something about which to be worried. They (the experts?) often say that stress is more damaging than a piece of junk food. I think that goes well with the verse in Philippians 4:6-7 which says, ‘Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known unto the Lord.’ Of course, I do not profess to be a dietitian in any way, shape, or form, so I would encourage you to follow Robyn’s blog for all of her SUPER helpful and balanced tips on nutrition from a professional perspective.
I did have a salad yesterday though. Salads are one of my favorite lunchtime meals. They don’t always fill me up for lunch, so I usually eat the salad and follow it up with some more carbs, proteins, or sometimes, some sugar.
Favorite eats this week?
Do you ever feel self-conscious when you’re eating? How do you combat that?
Thank you Jenn for providing the opportunity every week to link-up!