Before I share my WIAW for the day, I want to share some encouragement for those who deal with recovery, weight yo-yoing, or dieting, by just giving a little bit of my experience with all three matters.
Trigger Warning: I’m not going to talk numbers, but I am going to share a little bit about my weight, and 3 reasons I’ve maintained my weight for a year, the longest I’ve gone in about 6 years since I begin struggling with ED. However, if you don’t think you will be helped or encouraged by it, please don’t read further for your own safety and mental health.
When Daddy told me that it was time to gain more weight, I liked the idea. I really did, until it felt like my weight kept going up and up. I was tied to the scale, to the number. I would get on the scale at least 4 or 5 times a day. Every time, I looked at my weight and compared it with the ‘BMI charts’ it made me even more disappointed.
I struggled with this for a long time. I was so tied to the 3 numbers and what they said about my ‘health’ until I began to learn that they DIDN’T say that much about my health. There were so many other factors of sleeping well, having energy, not being hungry 24/7, and having my cycle that I didn’t take into account. I let my health be defined by a box, a box that didn’t fit me.
What did I have to realize before my body experienced ‘real weight maintenance?’
1. My body didn’t fit the BMI charts. It needed to be at a higher weight than most people, and I had to stay off the scale in order to let my body reach that set point. My body went up and down, but eventually it did find its happy place.
2. I needed to eat more in order to re-feed after restricting for SO long. I am incredibly thankful that God has made the body to heal, that He truly does care for even the hairs on our heads. It seems backwards, but I found that ‘eating more’ actually helped me body settle out at a lower weight that was still higher than the BMI ‘chart’, yet JUST perfect for me.
3. I needed to meditate on this verse more from Philippians 4:6-7, ‘Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.’ The less I was anxious about my weight (I can give no scientific reason for this), the more it stayed stable.
And so, it’s time for a day of eats!!! 🙂 Be sure to thank Jenn for the link-up and check out the MANY other fun recaps of what my fellow foodies are eating today! 🙂
Breakfast was a bowl of yogurt with dried mangoes from the Philippines (My Dad and brother just got back from there), almonds, and peanut butter. I also munched on a little handful of granola before I went out to shovel. I’m learning that snacking is definitely okay, to satisfy the hunger. 🙂 And it doesn’t have to be at meal time.
Lunch was a smorgasbord… I ate quite a few of these crackers with Jarlsberg cheese and sauteed kale from last night.
I also probably ate 2 or 3 cups of yogurt today, and I ate some after lunch with dark chocolate raisins and trail mix. I didn’t take a photo., mostly because I was getting a bit lazy.
Anybody else tried this crackers? I had the ‘Toasted Sesame’ crackers this afternoon. I think my favorite crackers are crunchy crackers.
Kaila posted a recipe for ‘Caramel Apple Swirl Bars’ on her blog on Monday, and I was pretty determined to try them, which happened today after a very chilly snow day. And y’all, they were one of the best snack bars I’ve ever had. I’ve already eaten two with the pumpkin peanut butter I made last week.
These were the finished products… My daddy even got to eat some because they were gluten free.
Dinner was super easy and it included so many of the fear foods that I used to shy away from because in my mind, they were too fatty, or too full of carbs. I’m thankful that I can now be thankful for and enjoy all of these foods, knowing that God made our bodies for a balanced diet.
Dinner: Bacon Ranch Chicken Pasta Skillet – This took me about 20 minutes to make. Yay for Pinterest recipes!
In other news, God sent some marvelous, beautiful snow to water the earth last night and this morning. We got a whopping 12-18″, which we have been working on shoveling all day.
Thanksgiving Verses of the Day:
Psalm 28:7 – ‘The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.’
Psalm 7:17, ‘I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.