This post was originally written in 2016. I’ve been learning and growing in intuitive eating since then, but I still have a long way to go. I’m thankful for those of you who have come along with me on this journey. Most of all I’m thankful that God is using it to teach me to trust Him more.
Trusting God is a part of eating intuitively. I know that is why I still balk at intuitive eating some days. I know that I don’t trust God enough; I trust in my own feelings or I don’t trust anything at all. Why would I not trust a loving Heavenly Father, who is slow to anger (Nehemiah 9:31), plenteous in mercy (Psalm 145:8), perfectly holy (1 John 1:5), perfectly just (2 Thessalonians 1:6) and the VERY essence of love for every bit of food, every breath of air I breath? He is so perfect, wise, heavenly, and wonderful. He can take care of my body SO much more perfectly than I could ever attempt to do, and He gave me the intuitive eating signals. Why is it wrong to listen?
Last night I came home from a rather … trying… experience. I was tired and a bit nervous, but I pulled my Bible out and opened to this Psalm.
Psalm 146:3-6, ‘
3Put not your trust in princes, nor in the son of man, in whom there is no help.
4His breath goeth forth, he returneth to his earth; in that very day his thoughts perish.
5Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God:
6Which made heaven, and earth, the sea, and all that therein is: which keepeth truth for ever:’
Those verses are so comforting to me. And they also hit me where it hurts, because they show me that too often I’m putting my trust in things that can’t help me. But when I fix my eyes on God, the God of Jacob, I will be happy, content, peaceful, because God has all the power. He has all the knowledge. Even when I don’t know, God knows. That’s why I can trust Him, trust Jesus with EVERY single part of my being including my eating.
Answer: It’s not wrong to listen to my intuitive eating signals. Now that I’m weight restored I’m learning that trusting my intuitive eating signals is a way of seeing that God has restored my body to a healthier place.
I’m not the epitome of trusting God. Too often, I’m the little chattering girl in the corner, thinking or worrying about all the ways that ‘food’ could affect me negatively or how a lost workout could be. . . a big bummer. This is a journey; God is teaching me to trust Him with all my heart and not lean on my own understanding.
I’m thankful that those moments come much less often than they used to, but I can’t say that I am perfect at trusting God when it comes to life and specifically eating without fear or guilt.