I struggle with getting out of my routine. I love getting up in the morning, listening to a sermon, reading blogs, taking the dogs for a run or a walk, and then going off to do my work for the day. However, travel is so good at upsetting that routine which is a WONDERFUL thing for an eating disorder. Eating disorders love predictability, but God loves to train His children to trust Him. That’s what travel has taught me.
Life lately has felt like a really really fast roller-coaster and a long road. Let me explain by first sharing these verses from Psalm 40: 1-5, “I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord. Blessed is that man that maketh the Lord his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Many, O Lord my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.’ I’m realizing that so much of life requires patient, quiet waiting. Yet I stink at the ‘wait’ part and the ‘patient’ part. The hard part for me is being patient. It’s kind of like recovery and my health; I wanted to recover right away. I wanted to get my period back right away, but it took at least 2-3 years of intentionally being gentler and kinder to my body and wiser about my exercise.
This week was another … incredible week. The weeks are really flying by till our … trip to … DRUMROLL…. Europe. I’ll share more about that during the trip, but I’m really looking forward to 5 weeks of time with my family, driving, exploring, sleeping in the car, and hopefully eating some European chocolate. However, let’s review this week. What happened? I’m learning about healing and that healing is … slow. I’m not the most patient person in the world, but I’m thankful that healing is teaching me to wait on the Lord and not want healing, especially for my gut, right now. Honestly, it’s been kind of a down week for the gut, but I’m not hopeless; I know that the Lord has been teaching me to pray, wait, hope, rest, be faithful, and obedient in this waiting season. But I can’t say it’s easy.
Hiatuses: (aka: breaks or fasts) from things are something that is coming to my attention more and more this week as this year has been a FAST year. There has been so much happening with life changes, people coming to our house, stepping back from the blog, but focusing more on relationships, and I’m realizing that fasts from things or hiatuses are so beneficial, so you can focus on other things, grow deeper in seeking and wanting and desiring the Lord more, and that you don’t have to have those things to live.
Thanksgiving Verse Today: Colossians 3:17, ‘And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
I wish I had more pictures to share with you of all the bloggers that have encouraged me in the past year of recovery and blogging, but today I am going to start with a just a few of them.
I am incredibly grateful to God that each one of these has played a role in my life that they may never know. Each one journals the heart through their blog. Each woman seems to understand that their blog is the way of communicating thoughts and feelings you wouldn’t otherwise be able to share, and they impact people every day with their words.