Warning: If you are on exercise restriction or triggered, please don’t read this for your own safety and health. I love those of you who come to read the blog, but I don’t at all want to be the instrument of stumbling or offense to those who are on the road to healing from an eating disorder. <3 you all!
Running is more than being fit. If you talked to any serious runner, I’m sure they would agree, and today I want to share why I think it’s much more than fitness.
I saw this deer the other day while on a run. I was running along in my own little world, when I decided to just look to the left. That’s when I stopped short and stared at this beautiful doe, one of God’s creatures, standing about 5 feet away from me. It reminded me that running is so much more than being fit or getting in a workout.
When I first began running, I ran because I loved it. I really loved it. I loved the adrenalin rush, the sweat, the shower that felt SO good afterwards, the sore legs, the beautiful scenery, the peace, time to think, and being challenged by my older brother to always try harder, get faster, and test my limits. I got be alone with God and talk to Him, take my praises, prayers, and worries to Him, knowing that He was there and listening.
However, as I started to struggle with restriction and placing my body and food above my relationship with Jesus Christ, my relationship with exercise started to crumble. I never wanted to stop during a run because that meant I would stop burning calories. I missed sunsets, animals, cloudy skies, and beautiful meadows because my heart’s focus was so mixed up.
It’s taken a while, but God has really been changing, directing, and molding my heart’s focus back towards Him. He is faithful to complete His Good work in me for His glory! Titus 2:14 says, ‘Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works.’ Because of Jesus, my heart’s motivations for everything I do, including running, have and are changing every day. For that, I am SO grateful, and from now on, I don’t want to run just because I want to be fit. I want to run for God’s glory, to be with Him, and to learn to rest completely and trust in Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength!
Have I done a run longer than 6 miles in 3 or 4 months? No, I haven’t. But I have had some of the best runs I’ve had in years. There hasn’t been any pressure, mostly enjoyment of the scenery and remembering how to drink in and completely fall in love again with the amazingness of my God and Creator who created all of this and called it VERY GOOD!
Why do you run?
Have you ever lost the true reason you really love running in the midst of other distractions? How did you re-discover that reason?
Thank you Katie for letting us link up our ‘Marvelous Monday’ thoughts today!