I almost didn’t do this post, because we just got back to the half way point for our road trip to …. well… it’s a surprise. 🙂 Then I realized that I had been blessed with a gift post from a fellow blogger, whom I met on another blogger group called ‘The Peony Project.’ This sister in Christ, Flora, had a perfect topic that I thought would really pertain to taking care of our bodies, minds, and souls.
She is reminding you and me that sometimes the health journey of body, mind, and soul may be discouraging. Yet she also shares how she’s learned not to quit on her health journey even when the bumps get rough.
Did you read last week’s post and today’s from sweet Lyss who is balancing all the school work with still doing some blogging? That gal amazes me. She has a really good heart searching post that I’m going to go read right now about ‘body checking.’ It’s probably going to have some ‘ouch’ moments for me which are always good!
Flora shares how she really wanted to quit on getting healthy, but she realized that it was COMPLETELY worth it to stay the course and trust the Lord through every up and down. It really reminds me of how many times I’ve wanted to quit on recovering, on having the right relationship with exercise, on not idolizing food. Yet, every step, every point has been worth it because of the beautiful gold that God has worked through it all.
And now I can’t wait for you to be able to read Flora’s story about how she learned not to quit.
When it comes to my health I am a quitzilla. Growing up I was always thin, never having to worry about watching my weight. It wasn’t until my 20s when I started working out and I did so for a couple of years and really enjoyed it. But, I quit. I quit in a stressful time of my life when working out could have been beneficial. Instead, I was defeated by anxiety and ultimately surrendered to medication in order to relieve those symptoms. A few months and 40 lbs later I found myself in the doctor office with high blood pressure and was prescribed yet another medication. I was 27. I was on blood pressure medicine at 27 all because of being overweight and stressed. Let that sink in.
Now, 10 years later, I am pressing close to the dreaded “over the hill” age. How did I get here so fast? Seems like yesterday I graduated from high school but next year I will be attending our 20th year reunion!! The point is, I quit loving myself enough to care about my health. I would diet for a while, see no results and quit. I would eat healthy then have a stressful day leaving me in the kitchen baking cookies…..and eating all of them. I would go to the gym, feel sick after a workout, get frustrated and….quit! It has been a vicious cycle for 10 long years!
This hamster wheel of self-destruction has been an Achilles heel in my life; relationships and my health being the two main victims. When I recommitted my life to Christ several years ago, the cycle of destructive relationships came to an end and healing began in that area. Spiritually and emotionally I was being healed but for some reason I totally ignored my physical body. As Christians I think we often do that, don’t we? We tend to focus on the spiritual and ignore the physical. This is especially true in my southern, country style cooking upbringing.
Recently, a small group of us ladies joined along with an online bible study through Proverbs 31 ministries titled, “5 Habits of a Woman Who Doesn’t Quit”. What study could be more perfect, right? *sigh*. Question is, what study could be more challenging? Though this study is exactly what I needed, it was HARD facing the raw truth of my weaknesses. I love when the author says, “To put aside old habits and put new ones on isn’t comfortable. Maybe it sounds exciting at first, but to follow through despite how you feel and stay open to what God is doing – it’s tough.” Dang sure is! I never realized how often I give excuses, complain or don’t give my all until I started the study. Realizing how much quitting is ingrained in me is tough to accept. But, just as in my spiritual transformation, I have to face my weaknesses to get through the messy parts and God will mold it into something beautiful. After all, His strength is made perfect in my weakness!
Now that I am actually a Mother (omgosh I am a mom!), I have my daughter to think about. I want her to grow up loving herself, having self-worth and both emotionally and physically caring for the precious body God gave her. How can I teach her those things without first being an example? I have some work to do, folks!
I have decided to start new by learning to love my physical self – God’s temple. It is going to be tough, but I am on my way to refusing to remain a quitter for the rest of my life. What if I have one stressful moment and resort to baking my beloved chocolate chip cookies? As long as I am trying and refusing to quit I think I will be ok. One slip up here or there may happen, but grace will cover that! Mercies are new every morning! The road is going to be bumpy and rough but I know I have cheerleaders in my corner. Most of all I know there is nothing I can do on my own strength – I will have to rely heavily on God for this.
Who knows, maybe I will quit again – but I hope not. I hope I will allow the deep conviction to care for my body fuel my determination this time. I hope I will not allow one day of eating a piece of cake (oops) to derail the mental progress I have made. And I hope my cheerleaders will yell at me when I start whining about doing cardio – oh how I hate cardio! So, even though I run slower than a herd of turtles stampeding though peanut butter, I will run. Bless my heart.
I have always been a quitter – till now! Anyone want to join me? Let’s do this!
2 Corinthians 12:9 “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
Don’t ever give up!
If you want to read more of what Flora has written she writes here at ‘Our Something Beautiful!‘
Have you ever gotten discouraged about your health or recovery journey?
What motivates you not to quit?
Have you ever quit on something and then started again?
Do you have anybody, a blogger, a family member, friend, husband, etc… that motivates you to keep being healthy?
Linking up with Amanda to Think Out Loud… 🙂