This past year has been a spark of new hope in my heart, and no, it’s not connected to the presidential election (in case you were wondering.) God is giving me new hope after years of struggle. This last week really hit this home for me, because I’m feeling more optimistic and hopeful than ever before.
He has put a new song into my heart, and I am happier and more joyful and freer than I’ve ever felt before in my life. And that’s taken 24 years. I truly have realized the peace of God, the peace of Christ that passes all understanding this year in the midst of some of the hardest circumstances our family and church has faced. I’m healing. I’m running because I love it, not because I have to. I’m resting, because rest is good, and it’s so refreshing for the soul, mind, and body. And I’m also talking about a vacation that’s coming up; thank you Meg for creating this fun ‘Week in Review.’ It’s a wonderful space to share thoughts, lessons from the week, and all the wonderful/hard/challenging/amazing things that happened.
I kind of just want to sing and dance these verses from Psalm 103:1-4, ‘
Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;’
There’s a part of me that feels almost like it’s too good to be true but instead of expecting something bad around the corner, I want to thank God for all the beautiful things that have come out of my brokenness, out of God forgiving my sin, Jesus cleansing me, the Holy Spirit assuring me that I am the child of God.
This week I’ve had some really freeing thoughts and realizations; that’s why I wanted to share them in hopes that they might encourage you.
I’m caring less about how my clothes fit and whether I’m bloated or not.
I’m eating more ice cream, and I’m feeling less guilt about days without vegetables.
I’m amazed at how the prospect of a vacation doesn’t scare me as much as it did when I was in the depths of ED.
This past week was another reminder of that freedom.
I started thinking about it on my long run on Saturday. After talking to Ellie about her best tips for a long run, I went out there.
Ellie told me to just breathe, to just enjoy, to just go slowly and slower. I didn’t need to power through it. I didn’t need to think about all the house work to do after I got back. I just needed to enjoy God and glorify Him in each moment of that run.
That was Saturday, and boy was it GLORIOUS! Each mile passed by so quickly as I drank in the surroundings, prayed, thought, and talked to myself.
Friday was also really good. It included watching a movie in a hammock with my sisters… We had 3 different hammocks set up, and we sat out under God’s stars, and watched a movie. The kettle corn was DELICIOUS.
That morning we had a restful morning and went to the local county fair. It reminded me of all the reasons I love living in a cowboy/cowgirl county. People love animals. Everyone has 5 dogs. And everyone fell in love with the beagle puppies that we brought.
Friday, we had one of my friends that I’ve known for about 14 years over for pizza and ice cream sandwiches. We also got to just sit and watch little beagle pups play which is one of the BEST things ever.
Friday was also the day that I started to realize something. One of the major issues with my digestion has really lessened this week. The cautious or maybe faithless? part of me doesn’t want to believe it, but the side of me that believes that God can do ANYTHING is jumping up and down inside for joy!
Thursday… Now that was an equally quiet yet somehow busy day? We went to the fair again… I went on a short run, and I didn’t obligate myself to any time or distance. Meg’s post really made me think about why I exercise and whether I do it out of obligation or a love for movement?
Truly, this past week has been a week of loving the movement I’ve been doing and loving the rest when it’s time to lay on the couch and do nothing.
Psalm 37:7, ‘Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.’
Resting is TRULY worth it, in the Lord, because God is in control, and you don’t have to fret your head over the evil things that are happening because God is just, and He will take care of it.
Did you notice that I also included ‘vacations’ in the title of this post?
That’s because we have an epic adventure/vacation to explore another part of God’s awesome world in September, and because of all the healing that is happening with my digestion, my cycle, and my mental and spiritual health, I am BEYOND excited for this vacation.
Well, in light of this rambling week in review, I’ll also share that it’s August, and I can’t believe it’s so close to September. I’ve really been treasuring the summer months that have been so full of joy, healing, hope, fun, tears, laughter, and excitement at all the wondrous things God is doing here in our little town.
Last but certainly not least I shared a fun podcast this week about a day in my life. If you would be interested in listening you can find it here; the podcast has been such a blessing to do, and I have an episode that is very near and dear to my heart coming up this next week.
Possibly Running a Half Marathon
Going on a Trip To A Far… away place…
Enjoying the Many Summer Nights We Still Have
Resting in God’s grace and truth that keeps me rooted day by day by day even with all the crazy things going on in the world.
Working On My Blog and Podcast to Get It Ready for Vacation Mode in September/October
Last but not least have you entered my bi-monthly podcast giveaway with Bliss Nut Butters on Instagram yet? Here’s the picture, and you can enter through this link! It ends on August 8th, so you have a couple more days.
Now, I would love to know:
What are you looking forward to in August?
What has given you new hope this summer?
Have you ever gone through a period where you knew you needed more time for healing?