Thinking out Loud with Amanda for Today’s Link-uP!
Joy. Pure abject joy. That’s what I’m experiencing today after 4.5 pretty heavy months of uncertainty and dealing with tough emotion. It’s amazing how God made us to experience emotion. Have you ever read the Psalms? They are so full of the emotions of PRAISE, agony, sorrow, conviction, pain, and much much more. This week I’m thankful to say that after 4.5 months of experiencing so many emotions of confusion, uncertainty, sorrow over sin, and even being upset about the place where God has put me. I was discontent. I readily confess that now, because God really revealed that to me earlier this week. I wasn’t dwelling in contentment. I wasn’t REJOICING in the Lord and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His suffering. I was just … wallowing in misery and wanting something that God doesn’t have for me right now.
I really had to face that earlier this week, and the emotion, the sorrow of spending so many months feeling sorry for myself, hit me hard.
Emotions are a gift. They aren’t something to be hardened to, because I’ve found that the Lord uses those emotion of grief over my sin to lead me to repentance, to lead me to wanting to walk a new road by His grace and through His strength alone.
Your emotions aren’t something to drive your life or your decisions, but I’ve learned that God uses them in the lives of His children for good. I’ve been afraid of the emotions of love, the emotion of feeling compassion for another person, the emotion of even being sorry for my sin, but God created us with these.
“Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.’
I’m thankful that the Lord cleanses me of the sinful emotions of anger and bitterness towards others. I”m thankful that He is cleansing me of my miserable self focus. I’m still that work in progress, but God is FAITHFUL. And He will complete it.
Now that I shared that; something that’s on my heart tonight after prayer meeting, I wanted to share what I’ve been learning about blogging and social media lately.
2. I’m a blogger who loves to share the things I’m learning at the time, and it sometimes look like a more formal post or a more ‘Thinking out Loud’ post like today.
3. I’m still a recovery blogger, because my heart really is to help girls find a SOLID identity in Christ Jesus, not in their weight, or in the food they eat, or in the exercise they do.
4. But I’m not just a recovery blogger. I can’t make up a post about recovery that is forced, but I will genuinely share from the heart when the Lord gives me something to share.
5. I LOVEEEE Podcasting, and I want to share more stories. The next story I HOPE to share is Taylor’s. . .
6. I still really love Instagram, but it’s more of a food/dog/outdoors feed than food, and it just feels more genuine to who I am and where God has me as a person.
7. I’m going to be posting less, but when I post, I want to post in order to help people, encourage others, and share the genuine lessons I’m learning.
Have you ever been uncomfortable with your emotions?
How have you learned to embrace your emotions but not be driven by them?
Would you consider yourself an outwardly emotional person or more of an inward emotional person (who keeps a lot of their emotions on the inside?)