I used to always take my running watch with me wherever I go, but as you know I’ve struggled with doing exercise for all the wrong reasons. This watch almost became another ‘god’ to me; I worshipped the pace, the calories, the distance gone, and I just didn’t remember why I did running anymore. So by God’s work in me, the watch was something that had to go.
It’s not that the watch is a bad thing; it’s definitely a gift from God, but I couldn’t use it in the right way at my point in recovery, so I gave the watch away.
Now running is so much more free. I don’t focus as much on the numbers, and my eyes are looking for the simple beauty around me and wanting to inhale the fresh air and enjoy the grass and the flowers and all the other sights and sounds.
Running, for me, can’t be about the numbers, but I can definitely say that if I go to a race, I will definitely be looking to see if I made a PR. I’ve found that it’s made PR’s more special, when I don’t know my pace before hand, and then I find out that I did better than I expected at a race.
I’m grateful that God takes us through different struggles in our lives, and that He shows that His strength is made perfect in weakness. That is a weakness of mine; it was a sin of mine, and God is helping me to not worship numbers anymore.
Now running is about the freedom to move, the joy and delight and beauty of God’s world around me, and I can say that I don’t think I’ll be bringing a running watch back for the time being (at least).
I also recorded a short podcast with my thoughts on an obsession with numbers. Please take everything I say with a grain of salt, as I’m still finding myself struggling with an obsession with the number somedays. I know it’s a real struggle, and I wanted to address it with as much truth and love as possible.
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And now it has been WAY too long since I have shared my latest, favorite, greatest links with you that I’ve found in my journeys through the internet. I have a HUGE list, so let’s get started.
Recovery/Body Image/Eating Links
Cora talks about feeling like you eat more than everyone else and how to deal with it.
Evangeline gets real and raw about her experience with an ED.
Cora did a fun experiment trying to follow Canada’s food guide (kind of like the USDA food pyramid.)
Kat nearly made me cry, with the strength, compassion, and fervor of this post.
Depression isn’t something to be taken lightly.
Cora’s current thoughts about working out and food. I resonated with these so much.
Sarah’s post about what dietitians eat every day was a really fun look into what RD’s love to eat every day.
How to learn from mistakes as opportunities instead of bemoaning them as failures. Megan, you always know how to turn something difficult into something beautiful.
Jen reminds girls why we lift. It doesn’t need to be about having a six pack.
Jen from Pretty Little Grub is going on a trip AROUND THE WORLD, and I want to go with her. :o)
Georgie shares some really fun, simple meal ideas.
What Does It Mean Truly to be a Christian? – Megan, thank you for this post.
Celebrate these 13 Adulting Wins with Megan…
Interesting Food/Health Posts
Sarah touches something that can be sensitive for those struggling with recovery, but she actually shared a supplement that looked like it would be really good when I’m always craving things and never satisfied.
Victoria is my go-to resource on dealing with IBS symptoms. This post with 10 steps for IBS was super helpful; I’m implementing the tips, a little each day.
How To Separate Yourself From Food (Sarah covers something that can be a huge struggle especially when you’ve had an ED and you spend so much time thinking about food.)
Do you do a running watch?
Are you the kind that can get obsessed over numbers?
Did you ever ditch the running watch for a while and then go back to it and find that you weren’t as tied to the numbers?